Captain Chonkers Chapter Forty


I didn't get much sleep that night. Let alone a moment to break out and escape. Thicc Corgi kept moving about, back and forth. Thankfully he took me out of the cage and unshackled me, allowing me freedom, however it was just to start performing the intrusive tests. When he said they were intrusive, he meant it. He shoved tubes down my throat. Shone bright lights into my eyes and poked and prodded inside my ears. He made me open my mouth to 180 degrees again. I flinched when he put multiple needles into my body. A few times I snapped and growled at him in frustration. When I swiped at him for getting too intrusive, he pushed me down into the table. "Don't make me shackle you again,  Captain Chonkers because I will!" he said angrily. "This needs to be done." He eventually ended up knocking me out with a sedative when I got too angry with him being intrusive. When I finally came around, I was back in the cage, shackled. "LET ME GO!" I screamed, and he jumped, dropping a tray of metallic instruments. There was a loud crash as it fell to the floor. "I'M NOT A PRISONER!" "BLITZNAK Captain Chonkers!" he roared back at me. "I KNOW THAT! BE QUIET!" I growled even louder at him. He sighed and put his hand to his head. "Look. You know this is being for your own good. If you do not let me test you, then how else am I supposed to be preventing this from getting worse? I am the ONLY one that knows you and I am the ONLY chance you have at fixing this. You just need to trust me,  Captain Chonkers. The last thing I am wanting to do is hurt you and as your father is paining me greatly to put you into this situation, however is either this or face second doomsday. Which do you prefer?" I couldn't answer him. My throat locked up again. I turned my back and just curled up into a ball in the cage. He sighed, before leaving the room again and finally I felt tears start to leak down my face.</p><hr size=1 noshade><p>I wondered if this was depression I was feeling. Another voice had opened up in my mind. It wasn't the voice I'd been hearing for the past month – no, this was something else. This voice was encouraging me that life would be better for everybody else if I was gone. Thicc Corgi wouldn't be working himself to death trying to fix me. Mrs. Doggo wouldn't be stressed anymore.  Queen Floofy Floofer wouldn't have to worry about the future. Things could go back to normal for them. I didn't want to give in to this voice. I needed to be strong. But right now? I wasn't. I was at my most vulnerable. I felt weak and exhausted and was in no position to will up the mental strength I needed to ignore the voice. The thought of having a simple way to destroy the Metamorphosis System from activating was alluring to me. I'd been haunted for my entire life with visions of what I'd done to Turo and I was prisoner of my own thoughts due to it. I could finally be free from those. Nobody else could ever understand how I felt and despite Thicc Corgi had been a criminal as well he wasn't the one that had decimated innocent aliens and ripped them limb from limb – I was. I could go back to that state of not being aware I existed. I couldn't describe what it was like because there was simply no way to. It was just nothing. An eternal void of nothing was better than constantly reliving the hellscape I'd created on Turo. Seeing the decaying bodies of aliens I'd mutilated, reaching out to me in my dreams. And if I was going to do it all over again to Kauai... It was too much to handle. My mind was made up. It had been for a while. When Thicc Corgi finally fell asleep from exhaustion, I broke out of the cage and shackles and ran out of the ship.</p><hr size=1 noshade><p>The highest cliff in Kauai was just on the outskirts of Kokaua Town. It was the same one I'd been on with Thicc Corgi only shortly before, when he'd finally revealed the horrible truth about my past. The first time I'd seen it was when I'd rode up there with  Queen Floofy Floofer on Mertle's tricycle. I'd realised there was no city here that day and that was how my destructive programming had been eradicated. It was because of that very moment atop this cliff. How could I carry my purpose if there was nothing here for me to carry it out on? I'd eventually forgot, and that was how Queen Floofy Floofer had saved me. She couldn't save me now though. Nobody could. And even though he was trying, Thicc Corgi couldn't either. He was just fighting a losing battle. The Metamorphosis System couldn't be stopped. Doomsday was inevitable. I wasn't going to put him through that pain again. He'd suffered enough after seeing what I'd become on Turo. He'd made a terrible mistake and I wasn't going to let it happen again because he'd been paying for it his entire life. It wasn't fair to him. I approached the cliff and proceeded to climb up it. Once I went over it, there was no coming back. Ever. But as long as everybody else was safe, I was okay with that. I was nearly there. Only a few steps away from getting up to the cliff. I was going to do this, and nobody would stop me. ...Or so I thought. As I climbed up onto the cliff and proceeded to walk up to the edge, a shadowed figure came into view. My vision focused on their facial features and my jaw dropped in disbelief as I realised who it was. It was Mrs. Doggo.</p><hr size=1 noshade><p>Mrs. Doggo looked down at me. I looked up at her. Apart from the sound of the waves crashing against the cliff ledge below us, it was a relatively calm night. "Thicc Corgi had warned me you might try this," she finally said in a blunt voice. "That's why I'm here." I sneered. "To what? Stop me?" She nodded. I couldn't believe it. "But isn't this what Naanee want?" I asked her. "Think about it. You be stress free. Everybody happy." She was quiet for a few moments. "Not once ever have I thought you leaving us would be the best solution,  Captain Chonkers," she responded. "Do you really want to hurt everybody like that?" "Hurt already," I responded. "Going to hurt more anyway. Wouldn't make difference." "Yes, we are hurt. All of us are" she responded. "Even humans think suicide is the right answer sometimes, so you're not alone in that belief. I contemplated it when mom and dad died. But the one thing that stopped me ever going through with it was Queen Floofy Floofer, because I couldn't put her through that after already losing our parents. Suicide is the ultimate form of selfishness, whether you think otherwise or not." I glared at her. She stood her ground. "If you go over that ledge tonight Captain Chonkers, you'll destroy all of us. You'll make Queen Floofy Floofer depressed to the point even I won't be able to save her. She only moved on after our parents death because you came into her life. Is that what you truly want?" I looked away at that. "I know you're stronger than me. You could easily push me aside and do what you think is best for yourself. You know I'm deathly scared of you right now, after seeing what you started to change into. But I'm doing this for the sake of your father and for my sister. Because I don't want to see them suffer through the pain I endured after losing my parents. That's why I'm here." My ears flicked slightly. I looked at her out of the corner of my eye. "I'm furious you kidnapped Queen Floofy Floofer and it's probably going to take us a long time to get back to the way we used to be, Captain Chonkers. Our relationship is broken right now and I don't feel like I can trust you – I can acknowledge that. But do not think for a moment I will allow you to make Queen Floofy Floofer suffer again, or have to tell your father his only child is never coming back. That's why I have this." She pulled out the same dart gun Thicc Corgi had used on me last time and I eyed it in her grip. I had no chance against that thing if one hit me. She aimed it at me. I could tell she was shaking, badly. Mrs. Doggo had never used a gun in her life. "If you try to get past me, then I'll shoot you." "And what if I dodged?" I challenged her. "You really think you can hit meega? Naanee not Thicc Corgi.  Captain Chonkers, years of tactical manoeuvre training. Naanee never hold gun in life." She went quiet at that and lowered the gun slightly. I'd dented her confidence. "Kre'vshist dz libahx." " Captain Chonkers, you know I cannot possibly understand you." "Exactly." I used her momentary confusion to dart around to the cliff ledge and kick her leg out from under her, but not hard enough to hurt her. She screamed and fell down, dropping the gun. I knew she would and grabbed it. "NO!" I just shook my head. I held the gun up to her. "Even with this, naga agabba. Face it, Naanee isa no match for Captain Chonkers." She looked crushed, but then I saw tears form in her eyes. "Fine!" she rasped. "Fine, Captain Chonkers. You're right. I am no match for you. But when I break the news to Thicc Corgi and Queen Floofy Floofer you're never coming home, I hope you at least acknowledge that you were the one responsible for destroying them beyond all repair and permanently ruining their lives BECAUSE THIS ISN'T THE ANSWER CAPTAIN CHONKERS!" I felt the air leak out of my lungs at hearing that shout from her. I lowered my head. ...She was right. I turned and looked down at the water below, my ears blowing behind me in the wind. It was a long way down. "..." I really did think this was the best option. It was the only way to save everybody's lives. To prevent Kauai from being destroyed. I'd killed thousands on Turo – I didn't deserve this life. I didn't deserve to live for what I'd done, and I'd always felt that way. I'd always felt that I shouldn't be alive, and for that reason it was hard for me to accept or believe that people cared about me as much as they claimed to, even though I knew it was true. Queen Floofy Floofer and Thicc Corgi had proved that to me. I looked back at Mrs. Doggo. The woman was clearly ill, stressed and worn to the bone. Not to mention pregnant; she shouldn't even be out here right now. Thankfully the cliff ledge was soft and she hadn't been hurt when I'd knocked her down but yet here she was, out here to stop me from plunging to a watery grave. I'd always thought she'd wanted this. But now I realised I was wrong. Mrs. Doggo might have been angry with me, but if she really didn't care she wouldn't have come out here to stop me. She would have just let me do it. And with my state of mind, I probably would have. Because of what she'd just said to me, I realised I did need to reconsider my choices. It seemed desolate now, but maybe this wasn't the only answer to fixing the problem after all. Essentially, she'd saved my life tonight. I stared at the dart gun, before throwing it back to her. She'd been hugging her knees to her chest and looked up from the soft 'thud' as it landed beside her, before looking at me. "...?" I turned to look out over the water again. "Take it." " Captain Chonkers?" she asked. "If you think I'm going to jump, then go ahead. Shoot me." "..." She stood up to her feet shakily behind me, picking up the gun and aiming at me. She was quivering badly. I turned back to look at her. "...A-are you?" I stared at her for a long moment, before looking away. "No." Mrs. Doggo lowered the gun, but remained wary. Slowly she edged towards me. I just stared at her. Eventually she reached out, and I felt her hand take my lower right paw. She flinched, as if expecting me to lash out at her, but I didn't. We just stared into each other's eyes. "Come home,  Captain Chonkers." She tugged at my paw gently. "But do Naanee want me home?" I asked her. She closed her eyes. She knew the implications behind my question. "Yes. I do. We are still ohana, broken or not." That was all I needed to hear from her. I eased back with her as she pulled me away from the cliff ledge. She continued holding me until we were back on the mainland. I looked up at her. "Naanee really care?" She started crying again. She didn't respond but instead picked me up and put me over her shoulder in a hug. I closed my eyes. "I don't want you to leave," she told me. "I've had to break the news of death to Queen Floofy Floofer once before... don't ever make me have to do it again." "Okeytaka..." I mumbled into her shoulder. I felt awful. "I'm sorry. For everything." She stroked my head as she carried me away. "I'm sorry too. You're not the only one that hasn't been themselves lately." I looked at the cliff ledge one last time as I was carried away from it and for the first time in a while, I felt somewhat at peace.</p><hr size=1 noshade><p>It was almost three in the morning when we got back home. Nobody was asleep. They were crowded around me in the family room as Thicc Corgi nearly screamed himself hoarse at me. Queen Floofy Floofer was hugging Shiba Chonkers's leg, terrified. My father was furious with me. "AFTER ALL I AM DOING FOR YOU, YOU STILL ONLY THINK OFFING YOURSELF IS BEST SOLUTION?! HOW ABOUT NOT THINKING OF YOURSELF FOR ONCE, EY Captain Chonkers! OR IS THAT TOO HARD FOR YOU EVEN?!" "Thicc Corgi, calm down! Please!" Mrs. Doggo pulled him back the best she could. "The main thing is that I was there." I couldn't look at Thicc Corgi. He always scared me when he was in temper. He knew this was untrue, but his anger had taken ahold. "ANSWER ME YOU STUBBORN LITTLE–" "NAGA!" I cried, pulling down my ears. "NOT THINKING OF SELF, THINKING OF OHANA!" "Sure doesn't seem like it!" he growled in response. "Thicc Corgi, listen to me for a moment!" Mrs. Doggo interjected. He crossed his arms and faced her, but he paid attention to her. "Instead of yelling at him, perhaps try to understand why he did it instead. When my parents died, it took every last inch of willpower for me not to do the same thing..." she said softly. "And I don't doubt there was some point in your life where you felt at your lowest..." My father just stared at her. I could tell he was thinking over what she had just said to him. He sighed and ran a hand through his hair. "So why did you do it then?" he muttered, eventually turning to face me. I had my back turned to them at that point, hugging my knees close to my chest. "Naga paso aga tabay huresto." Thicc Corgi approached my side at that. I looked up at him. He picked me up and held me out in front of him. We stared at each other. "I can understand why you are doing this Captain Chonkers, but you know is not right solution. What if there was chance, problem could be fixed? Would never be knowing if you were gone. Death could have been avoided." I looked down. "Yes I was at lowest, multiple times in life. Thicc Corgi pushed on, and look where it led me. Better life... here on Earth with family, an ohana... and you, my own child. Things do get better, Captain Chonkers. You are not alone in struggles." Mrs. Doggo nodded at me slightly from behind him. "I know, you do not like suffering through this. Through my tests. But am doing so to save you. You are knowing they must be done. You're strong,  Captain Chonkers. I created you to be strong and to not give up. I never once gave up on you – so don't give up on me. Don't make all my efforts be in vain." I choked slightly at hearing that. Thicc Corgi noticed. He put me over his shoulder and hugged me. I felt awful and foolish. I was declining so badly lately and my mental state was going downhill fast. I was well aware at this point I wasn't myself anymore. Or so it felt like, at least. I had just felt as though everybody would be safe if I was gone. I couldn't go through life knowing I would likely destroy Kauai and kill my family and that was what had pushed me over the edge. Like when I'd taken the ship and crashed it. The thought of hurting Queen Floofy Floofer past the point of no return was my worst nightmare. I had thought my decision was rational, but they all thought I was irrational. Perhaps it was time I started seeing things more from their perspective and not just my own. They wanted to help me, yet I was shutting them out. I did so because I knew the consequences of what could happen if I lost control of myself, while they only had a small idea of what I was truly capable of. Apart from Thicc Corgi, they'd never seen me at my most destructive. Mrs. Doggo thought me ripping out those trees was the worst thing she'd ever seen. She had no idea I'd demolished an entire planet. I didn't want them to ever see that side of me. I didn't want my nightmares to become their reality. And I certainly didn't want them to live through the nightmares I faced on a daily basis. None of them were a prisoner of their own crimes. I felt Thicc Corgi stroking my back and as I'd done with Queen Floofy Floofer, I began to study their expressions. Mrs. Doggo looked worn down and exhausted, but she was still standing her ground. She'd gone out and ensured I'd come back home safe. She'd fulfilled her duty in the role of a true carer and guardian and my respect for her had gone up significantly, despite what had just transpired between us. Sir Chonky was hugging a stuffed animal (it was typical of him). Shiba Chonkers was holding Queen Floofy Floofer. Both of them were watching, trying hard to stay awake. Queen Floofy Floofer kept yawning, but even so their worry was all too apparent. The agents were there, but they had backed off. I looked at them, before pulling back. " Captain Chonkers... do it because feel like enemy," I finally admitted. They looked confused at hearing that from me. Mrs. Doggo came closer towards us and Thicc Corgi pulled me back again to look at me. I continued. "Point guns at me. I feel like criminal – enemy. Captain Chonkers not bad. 621 bad. Is why Captain Chonkers run away. Take Queen Floofy Floofer. Have to force you to believe me." There was an awkward silence. One of the agents cleared their throat. I struggled gently against my father and he put me down. " Captain Chonkers NAGA kaphong!" I thrust my arms out. "Go point gun at Chops, or Captain Chonkers Clone's instead! Actual bad aliens!" " Captain Chonkers..." Mrs. Doggo began, but I continued. "All life, been targeted. Had guns pointed at. For being meega! Enough! Don't do it again!" "But what if... that thing happens again. Like it did before?" Mrs. Doggo voiced quietly, looking at me before looking at Thicc Corgi. "I do not know, Mrs. Doggo," he responded. "But Captain Chonkers is right. Besides, pointing guns at him will not help case anyway, you are knowing he is bulletproof. Just be hoping such incident does not occur again. Am doubting it will." My father didn't sound too sure of himself. He looked at me and sighed. "For now, main focus should be on events coming up. Things are bad, yes, but let's at least try focus on something good. Will serve as good distraction." The agents dispersed after that. Shiba Chonkers took  Queen Floofy Floofer back to bed and Sir Chonky fell asleep on the couch, one agent remaining to guard alongside a UGF soldier. It was just Mrs. Doggo, Thicc Corgi and I in the kitchen at that point. Thicc Corgi picked me up again and sat me on his arm. "Thank you." Mrs. Doggo had been pouring herself a glass of water. Upon hearing that, she turned to face us. "For saving him," Thicc Corgi continued. "My son." She nodded. "I almost lost Queen Floofy Floofer to her grief. And we already have lost him once before..." she reached out and put her hand on my cheek. "Never again." I couldn't look at either of them. "Even if things are rough between us Captain Chonkers, you are both still ohana. Nobody gets left behind." "Or forgotten?" I mumbled. "Or forgotten." Thicc Corgi nodded, holding me against him. "Perhaps wedding will help heal open wounds. Captain Chonkers and I have been through a lot," I looked up at my father at that. "Is about time something good happened." Mrs. Doggo agreed before yawning. "I have booked in a doctors appointment for tomorrow afternoon. I explained to Mr Wong my situation. He's allowed me the day off so thankfully I don't have to be up early for once." " Captain Chonkers sleep beside Queen Floofy Floofer?" I asked. She looked hesitant at that. "I know that I cannot keep you away from her Captain Chonkers. But her safety is my priority." I looked down. I couldn't control if anything happened to me. " Queen Floofy Floofer smart," I said. She looked confused so I elaborated. "Sense danger. If see Captain Chonkers change, she run." "Alright," she replied softly, "I'll get her from Shiba Chonkers." She turned to leave, but looked back at me. "I do not trust you right now. But I know that not allowing you to be near your best friend isn't the answer." I shrugged. " Captain Chonkers cannot control." "But you could control kidnapping her." "Mrs. Doggo..." Thicc Corgi warned, but I put a paw to his mouth. I sighed. "Yeah, perhaps I could," I muttered. "But Naanee wanted police to take me away. Not talk to me first. You in wrong too, ih?" She sighed through her nose at that. "You don't believe Captain Chonkers not hurt Queen Floofy Floofer, despite you know well that Captain Chonkers never hurt her." She paused. "Well, what would you have done to us that day? When you changed into whatever that... thing... was?" Ugh. How the heck was I supposed to answer this? I couldn't just outright say the real reason why I'd changed. I shook my head. "Naga nota." "Would you have hurt us?" I paused. "Ih, I probably would have," I admitted and I saw Mrs. Doggo flinch at that. "But Captain Chonkers naga in control, of body. Like when glitched. I do not know what I am doing." "You're in control now though, correct?" "Ih." "You really scared her Captain Chonkers so I don't know how she'll respond." She sighed. She didn't say anything more after that but simply put down the glass and headed into Shiba Chonkers in their bedroom. Thicc Corgi just rubbed noses with me supportively before putting me down beside him.</p><hr size=1 noshade><p>Mrs. Doggo returned shortly after with a very tired Queen Floofy Floofer. Queen Floofy Floofer stared at me for a while and I stared back at her. I had no idea what was on her mind and I didn't know if she was angry with me or not for what I'd done before. I had frightened her after all, and she'd been very quiet since then. I had apologised to her before I'd been shot by Thicc Corgi and I was truly remorseful for what I'd pulled her into. I felt like the worst alien in the world. Thicc Corgi and Mrs. Doggo watched us quietly. I slowly reached out my paw to her. She looked away to the side, and I could tell she was apprehensive. I lowered my ears and tried a different approach. One that I knew always made her smile. I started thumping my tail against the floor. Despite I wasn't happy, she knew I only did that when I was super happy about something. Or when I saw her. She bit her lip but she eventually smiled and laughed. She ran for me and hugged me. "Soka..." I said over her shoulder. "It's okay..." she yawned. "I forgive you." Mrs. Doggo looked looked as us tiredly. "Bed. It's well past your bedtime  Queen Floofy Floofer. I'll allow you to sleep beside each other but only on the condition you monitor him closely, Thicc Corgi." He nodded. "B.U.G already on it. I need to rest too. Will sound alarm if anything within Captain Chonkers's mind is changing. Is scanning brainwaves now on a twenty four hour basis. They will be safe with me in the ship." Mrs. Doggo nodded. "Goodnight." Thicc Corgi picked both of us up and carried us back outside to head up the the ship. One of the UGF soldiers followed us. They were odd looking creatures, strongly resembling a species called 'dinosaurs' here on earth. The guard's helmet was up and he stared at me. I stared back at him. For some reason he looked familiar to me. Then it clicked. He was one of the guards that had shot at me during my escape after my trial. I'd dodged his laser blasts by going into an air vent. My eyes were about to close when I heard the sound of leaves being crunched somewhere in the distance. I flipped up my ears and the guard raised his gun. A few seconds later a squirrel ran past. My heart thudded slightly. Thicc Corgi looked alarmed as well, a prickle of sweat on his forehead. Chopsuey and the Captain Chonkers Clone's were still out there. We were lucky they'd been quiet for a little while, but then again, that wasn't exactly a good sign. Who knows what they were planning? Thicc Corgi hurried into the ship at that, the guard standing post outside. I could hear his heart pounding. He locked the ship up tightly, before bringing us down to his bedroom. He set Queen Floofy Floofer down gently, pulling back the covers before putting me in beside her and then climbing in himself. I snuggled up against him, my angel right beside me. "I'm sorry Captain Chonkers. I know you did not like being in that cage... feeling like prisoner," my father muttered. My eyes flickered open. "I used to do same thing to 621. It was wrong. But... I need you to comply with me. At least until I am being finding answer." I nodded. "I do have more tests to perform later on, but you can have break while I spend day repairing cruiser. Have fun with little girl for once. Try not to stress about cell and focus on being happy. Trust me, will help." "Okay..." I muttered and felt him put a hand on my head. "Goodnight, son." "Night papa," I responded, unable to keep my eyes open any longer. As I drifted to sleep, I smiled at the thought of Mrs. Doggo stopping me from going over that ledge and for the first time in a while, I managed to have a decent sleep.


The next morning, I woke up before both  Queen Floofy Floofer and my father. Since I was between them in the bed, I was basically trapped so I just stared up at the ceiling of the ship and thought. My father had always told me I was strong. That I was the most resilient creature to have ever been created. I was the key to destruction and a literal doomsday device, having the ability to wipe out planets. Yet all it took was one little voice to tell me that if I was dead things would be better, and I gave into it. And because of that, I refused to believe that I was as resilient as I was led to believe. Perhaps I was strong physically, but I sure as heck wasn't strong emotionally. I crumbled easily and I knew this was because I had inherited my fathers emotions. Outside he appeared strong, but inside? He was just like me. He was weak. Not in every aspect, but some. He'd declined thanks to that horrible ex-wife of his deceiving him. He had also admitted to nearly shooting himself in the head after shooting me. Thicc Corgi had low points in his life. And Mrs. Doggo had even informed me that humans were suicidal sometimes. So was what I had done really that irrational? I still believed it wasn't. Stupid, maybe – but understandable. Right? They couldn't hold it against me. I'd suffered a lot throughout my life. If any human had to endure what I had they'd probably would have already killed themselves. I was created to be the strongest creature in the galaxy, I could handle it. Only just.  Queen Floofy Floofer had made me wonder what it had actually been like for her when she'd lost her parents. What sort of pain she'd actually experienced. Had it been enough for her to consider doing what I had just earlier this morning? She was only nine. Could a nine year old possibly feel depression to the point of thinking things would be better if she was gone? I doubted it. It just didn't seem like something that could happen. Like me, Queen Floofy Floofer had suffered trauma. Our situations couldn't compare, but she understood pain and loneliness. She understood what it was like to have nightmares. She understood me on the level my father did. I turned to face her as she slept. She had her back to me, but that didn't stop me from snaking my lower arms around her in a hug. She twitched slightly in her sleep. Sometimes I never wanted to let her go. She was my sanity. Ultimately she was the reason I'd decided against going over that ledge.</p><hr size=1 noshade><p>It was another two hours until both Queen Floofy Floofer and my father woke up. Queen Floofy Floofer yawned, giving me another glorious view of her mouth. Thicc Corgi also yawned, giving me an even bigger one. Both of them had very different teeth to me. Thicc Corgi only had a few; big and blunt. His species could devour through tough alien meats easily. Queen Floofy Floofer was still developing some of her adult teeth. Some of the teeth in her lower jaw had grown crooked. I had always wondered if it impacted on her in anyway, but she'd never shown any signs of discomfort from it. I knew sometimes humans needed something called 'braces' to correct their teeth. It seemed like a bizarre concept to me that small pieces of metal straightened teeth. As for my teeth? I had a mouth full of fangs. They were blunt, like my fathers, but I could easily tear through metal with them. All of them came to a point. Not one of them was flat. I had four dominant canines. I scared people whenever I growled because when I beared them I looked ferocious. It often made me think how different I was to everybody else. I was the only member of our family with fur. With claws. With extra limbs. They found me fascinating and often stared at me due to it. Because I was so vastly different in general, despite being a Kweltikwanian like my father. It was my make up of assorted species and genetics that rendered me different. Sometimes I hated it. I felt so alienated. It made me wonder what it was like to be a human, sometimes. To live in a body identical to everybody elses. To have skin and hair as opposed to fur, or even eyes that could move around. I had no control over my eyes. Even though my eyes were better than any living creature on the planet I basically just had one way vision. Thicc Corgi had created me to be better than everybody else. Humans, aliens. But did it truly make me happy? Often I found myself questioning that. I was fine with who I was, but I did want to belong. To feel part of a race, not just a one-of-a-kind monster. That was why the wedding was so important to me. "Morning  Captain Chonkers..." Queen Floofy Floofer said, interrupting my train of thought. I smiled at her and licked her on the cheek. She giggled. Thicc Corgi scuffed my head. "Lot's to do today. Best get started." He got out of the bed and left the room. "Class on today?" I asked Queen Floofy Floofer. It was a Monday morning by that point. "Not until tomorrow, Captain Chonkers," she responded. "I think Mrs. Doggo has the doctor later on today. They are going out later on as well to start setting up for the wedding and have some rehearsals." I nodded. I gazed at her. " Queen Floofy Floofer?" "Yeah?" " Captain Chonkers did not mean to scare you." "I know... you were stressed out. It wasn't like you, but I know that you'd never hurt me. You just wanted to be with me. It was a bit scary, but it was kind of fun too I guess. I don't want to do it again though." I nodded. "Do you think I am selfish?" "Of course not!" she responded, sounding alarmed. "Why?" "Took you away. For myself." "But we know why. It was because Mrs. Doggo wouldn't allow us to be near each other. You just wanted to make her see that, right? That it wasn't fair?" I nodded. "Naga good thing," I said quietly. "To do." "Perhaps, but it's done. Things got sorted in the end." " Captain Chonkers not Captain Chonkers, Queen Floofy Floofer," I told her gently. "Like this morning." She looked away. "I didn't know what was going on until I heard Thicc Corgi start yelling. I was too tired to really make out what was happening, but he seemed really angry at you." I blinked. " Queen Floofy Floofer, not know? What Captain Chonkers did?" She blinked back. "Well, what did you do?" she asked, confusion lacing her tone. I shook my head. "Perhaps, best Queen Floofy Floofer not know. But... you save me." She smiled at that. "Okay. As long as you didn't do something stupid again, Captain Chonkers. I don't like it when you do those things because you scare me. I really don't know what I'd do if something happened to you." I looked away from her at that, feeling ashamed. I felt her pet my ear gently and I hugged her tightly. " Queen Floofy Floofer, still be with Captain Chonkers, ih?" I asked. "Even if Captain Chonkers alien?" "Yes," she responded. "I promise. We can figure out something." "I hope so too." She stroked my back. I purred against her. Unable to help myself, I gave her a small kiss on the cheek. She closed her eyes and returned it by kissing me on the nose. She smiled at me. "I need to go and pick up some decorations for the wedding today at the mall. Want to come with me?" "Okeytaka." Queen Floofy Floofer nodded. I watched her as she shuffled out of the bed. She smiled back at me, before exiting Thicc Corgi's bedroom. I noticed her dragging the little blue plush dog I'd won for her behind her.</p><hr size=1 noshade><p>Mrs. Doggo was in a seemingly much better mood that morning. Breakfast was very late, but at least she was acting much better than she had been over the the course of the last week and weekend. She didn't do anything to shut me down or make me feel excluded. She didn't make me feel less of an equal. During breakfast, she gave me a big share of food. I was surprised. I think Thicc Corgi was too. He put his finger to his chin, and nodded at me in approval. I wondered if it had anything to do with me going to the cliff. Or perhaps she was just starting to feel excited about the wedding. When she sat down with us to eat, Thicc Corgi decided to address this. "Pleased to see you are being respectful to  Captain Chonkers." She looked at him at that. She gave a small nod and brief smile, but said nothing more. Queen Floofy Floofer grinned at me. Shortly after breakfast was finished, I lingered back to help Mrs. Doggo clean up as everybody else left. Queen Floofy Floofer had gone upstairs to the dome to get dressed. I hesitated and the older Pelekai sister looked at me. "Yes?" "Uh... need help?" "Um... sure. You can start drying those I guess." I could hear the hesitation in her voice. It was obvious now to me that things were still bad between us, despite she was acting nicer. I picked up a tea towel and started drying quietly. Mrs. Doggo kept peeking at me out of the corner of her eye. She probably thought I couldn't see her doing it since I was facing away from her slightly. "Yes?" She jumped slightly. "N-nothing." "I can see you." Whether she was embarrassed or not, I couldn't tell. Eventually she sighed. "Look Captain Chonkers. The wedding is in a few days. Today Shiba Chonkers and I are going to be mostly setting up at the venue and doing a short rehearsal. I had a long talk with him about what's been happening lately. With you." I narrowed my eyes slightly at hearing that. "I know you've been excited about the wedding. But I'm also scared that something might happen to ruin it. So we've decided to hold the event indoors now as opposed to outdoors. That way the security will be there to make sure no incidents happen. This is costing us a lot of money and I want it to go smoothly on the day." I nodded slightly. "Of course, I'm allowing you to be there. But I also want the guards there as well. The... lizard ones? I don't know what they are called." "United Galactic Federation soldiers." "Yes, those. I want them there to monitor you." My ears perked up. "Gaba? Like... supervise me?" "Yes." "Why?" I asked. "Because you think Captain Chonkers will change?" She hesitated. I could see her bite her lip. She put down her towel and sighed. "Yes. Because I don't want you to cause any trouble." "Guards naga human," I spoke. "Naanee not wish to risk identity, yet want obvious aliens there?" "The family knows about you three." I shook my head. "Not staff. Minister. Other humans. In venue, ih?" She paused at that. I shrugged at her. "Aga bata? Annibo Cobra agents?" "Because they need to guard the house while we are out." I put down the towel I was holding. "You are going to let me talk, though... right?" She just stared at me at that. "Right?" I repeated. "I don't know, Captain Chonkers. I'm just really scared of you changing again. I feel like there will be a risk of it during those hours." I went quiet at that. "..." She sighed. "I really don't–" "Why did you save me?" I interrupted her, climbing up onto the counter so that we were face to face. I saw a little fear in her eyes and her heart started racing slightly. "You are scared of me, ih? So why?" "Because you're family, Captain Chonkers!" she responded. "I already told you why! How it would affect Queen Floofy Floofer!" "If so scared of me, then why even want me at wedding? Think risk I change, why allow meega at all?" She went quiet. "Scare guests more with alien soldiers there, ih?" "Maybe but– " I leaned closer to her. "Remember... Captain Chonkers changed last time because Mrs. Doggo make Captain Chonkers <em>angry</em>," I drew out slowly. "Kept picking on meega. Iga na coota ni dabita?..." "W-what?" she asked softly, but I could tell she was terrified from her body language. Her heart was racing harder now and I could see perspiration form discreetly upon her forehead. "Isa simple. Naga anger me... I not change." <strong>"Good job! Put her into her place,  Captain Chonkers! She deserves this!"</strong> <em>Does she really though?</em><strong><br></strong> "Naanee naga want to... <em>anger</em> Captain Chonkers, right?" She leaned back from me, eyes wide. I saw her begin to back away. "N-no!" The voice laughed loudly. I tried to block it out. I jumped from the counter to the table beside her as she turned to leave the room. "Because... right now, Naanee IS angering Captain Chonkers..." She backed up against the wall. One of the guards had stepped forward at this point. I eyed him and he backed off. If he went for that damn gun I would rip it from his hands and break it in half in front of him. "I do not want guards at wedding, okeytaka?" I said to her. " Captain Chonkers not some prisoner. Will do that for Thicc Corgi – nobody else. Not want me change then do as I say. Agabba trying to ruin wedding for me." "O-okay..." she rasped. <strong>"Look at how scared she is. Isn't this exhilarating, Captain Chonkers? Seeing how these pathetic little humans cower in fear? Surely you must miss this. Being in complete control."</strong> I growled. <em>I don't miss anything. Leave me alone.</em> <strong>"Oh, but how she has angered you. Why not just let go and act on your anger? You'll feel so much better!"<br></strong><br>What the <em>heck? </em>No! I wasn't going to do that! Mrs. Doggo and the guard noticed my inner argument. I must have looked insane to them but this stupid voice was really starting to get on my nerves now. I knew I wasn't changing but a part of me was aware that I wasn't myself again and for some reason I couldn't find myself caring at that point. As much as I wanted to, I just couldn't. I saw the guard go for the gun suddenly. Within seconds I'd ripped it from his grasp and broke it in half in front of his face. He looked shocked. Mrs. Doggo had her hands to her mouth in shock. "I <em><strong>TOLD</strong></em> you before!" I sneered. "NO GUNS. CAPTAIN CHONKERS <strong>NOT</strong> <strong>BAD</strong>." He put up his hands. A few more guards came up from behind. I turned and ran from the kitchen.</p><hr size=1 noshade><p>This was getting worse. The monster inside of me was starting to come through now and I knew it was because of the cell. The voice was becoming more frequent and it was getting harder to clear my thoughts. I was losing myself.<em><br></em><strong><br></strong>Anger had started to plague my mind. My ability to remain calm was diminishing. I knew Mrs. Doggo was going to tell the others about this and I'd officially screwed up any remaining chance of being at the wedding now.<strong><br></strong><br>She was utterly terrified of me. How long until Queen Floofy Floofer was? This was wearing me down. I wanted to cry but no tears would come. It felt as though my own mind was locking up on me. I had no idea how things would go down now once I faced Mrs. Doggo again. I wasn't afraid of the guards, but I was afraid of being kicked out the family. No matter what I did, somehow I made things worse because of my anger, even though I had no reason to be as angry as I was. It was starting to consume me. The voice was finally starting to win. It was only a matter of time now until I truly gave into it... and I was deathly scared to think of what the outcome would be once that happened. " Captain Chonkers! There you are!" I heard my angel's voice break through my thoughts and looked up. I'd been sitting on the front porch. "I need to go now! Ready to go?" I nodded anxiously. It seemed like Mrs. Doggo hadn't told her what had just happened. I grabbed her hand and quickly left with her before anything else could go wrong that morning.</p><hr size=1 noshade><p>I waited for  Queen Floofy Floofer in the mall as she went inside to collect the decorations. People stared at me, but I didn't care at that point. I didn't want to be angry again and become that horrible version of myself I'd turned into before. Why was I so accepting of it? I couldn't understand. It was like my ability to recognise good from bad was being stripped away from me. I would never had done that to Mrs. Doggo in the past, but I had no control over what I was saying. It was like the words were coming out of my mouth before I could register them and this stupid voice encouraging it wasn't helping. I was getting sick of this now. I wanted to know what this voice was and why it was haunting me. Where it was coming from. Was it some kind of ghost that had entered my mind-scape? Was it a virus in my system that had corrupted my circuits? I had no possible explanation for it. It was doing my head in. I was gritting my teeth and pulling down my ears hard when Queen Floofy Floofer approached me again, a box in her arms. "Uh... everything okay Captain Chonkers?" She snapped me out of my thoughts. "Ih, ih..." I said quickly, putting my arms behind my back. "Okay," she said softly. "I have some money left over. Want to get some shave ice on the way home?" "Okeytaka." I carried the box for her as we walked away from the mall and headed down towards the beach. While she walked over to Luki's to get us the treats, I felt a tap on my shoulder and turned quickly. It was Mertle. "Uh... hi..." she said quietly. "Hello." I responded. She hesitated, gesturing before sitting down beside me upon the bench I was sitting on. I didn't mind if she sat there. "Can... can I talk to you about something?" I shrugged. Queen Floofy Floofer wouldn't be back for a little bit but I could still see her over at the man's cart. I was keeping an eye on her. "Sure." "Remember how Aleka lied about what we did and was ignoring me? Well..." she sighed. "I overheard them at the park a few days ago. Her, Yuki and Elena. They didn't know I was there." I tilted my head at her, perking my ears up slightly. "Ih?" "Aleka wants to get some kind of revenge on me. She is still angry about being told off by Moses, but I think she's also mad that I like you guys now. I don't know what she is planning with those two, but I'm scared Captain Chonkers. It feels like she really hates me now." I stared at Mertle upon hearing this. I didn't want to feel sorry for her for how she had basically treated Queen Floofy Floofer the same way, but I also knew she was doing her best to make it up to us by this point. After seeing how badly Queen Floofy Floofer had been bullied by those girls in the past it almost felt right that Mertle would be in this position now, but I could also tell she was suffering. Maybe she deserved it, but she was just a kid. She was learning her lesson. She was alone as Queen Floofy Floofer had been before I'd entered her life. I sighed. "Want Captain Chonkers's help, ih?" She nodded. "Feecha. I can help you," I told her. "But you need to be Queen Floofy Floofer's friend now and mean it." "I..." she started, looking at me before smiling. "I'd like that." I was surprised to hear that, but it made me feel happy for Queen Floofy Floofer. Mertle still had a ways to go, and I still felt as though I couldn't trust her, but this was a start. What she'd done to Queen Floofy Floofer was terrible, but I knew it would be just as bad for her to end up as Queen Floofy Floofer had before I'd entered her life. After experiencing bad depression myself, I truly didn't want to see it happen to her. Even the monstrous side of me would not have control of that. "Good." " Captain Chonkers!" I finally heard my angel call, and stood up to greet her. I truly hadn't thought that things could get much worse at that point after what had happened between myself and Mrs. Doggo before. I really hadn't. Boy was I wrong. As my angel reached out to hand me the shaved ice, a set of sharp claws were suddenly at her neck. Mertle screamed in shock beside me, standing up swiftly. Bystanders screamed in fright and fled as hulking figures made an appearance, stirring up the normally calm beach. Two sets of strong arms wrapped around  Queen Floofy Floofer, securing her. Seeing those razor sharp claws pressed against her throat made me lock up instantly. The shaved ice fell to the sand below, forgotten. I should have been keeping a closer eye on her. I wanted to smash my head into a brick wall over and over for my incompetence and I wanted to rip that monster's head clean from his neck for having the gall to even put his hands on her. Behind the monster stood two hulking cloaked Kwelkwanian's, guns aimed directly at me. This was my reality now, and I had to face it. Chopsuey and the Captain Chonkers Clone's had finally come out of hiding.

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